Solipsus

Today is the 3 year anniversary of my grandad’s death. I have never really blogged about it on any of my websites, because I have usually thought it to have been too personal to share with you, but I thought I would this time.

3 years already. Seems so much longer since I last saw him. T.T And it isn’t like I can go visit his grave, because he was cremated, and I can’t go visit his ashes because they are still contained in a box with my Nan (his wife). Damn you cancer.

I thought I would like to slot this poem into a post which was read out at his funeral service, just as a reminder of how great a grandad, father, husband and brother he truly was, and for me to look back on in the future when I want to remember him.

You can shed tears that he is gone
Or you can smile because he lived
You can close your eyes and pray that he’ll come back
Or you can open your eyes and see all he’s left
Your heart can be empty because you can’t see him
Or you can be full of the love he shared
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
Or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday
You can cry and close your mind
be empty and turn you back
Or you can do what he’d want
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

In memory of Brian Layton, 1938-2004. Taken from us by bowel cancer at the age of 65. I miss you.

Ben