Solipsus

I think I have come down with a sudden case of Paranoia. Throughout the day I get scared of the most random things I never did before, and it seems to have all started after my car crash.

It is quite understandable for myself to be scared of going on the roundabout in which my accident took place, or if I am driving along a road when I suddenly see a car approaching a junction to the side of me and I slightly swerve a bit due to the fear I am going to get hit again, but when it is actually mundane things, it does cause some concern.

An example of this would be when I was getting up off the floor in the conservatory from watching TV. My conservatory has tiled flooring, which is quite hard but what makes it worst is instead of wooden skirting around the edge, we have the tiles. So as I was getting up, I just saw myself slip on the tiles and smack my head open on the tiled skirting - therefore dying there on the spot. Is that normal?

Another example would be when I was at school and using some scissors to cut up some paper for a presentation we were giving and I suddenly thought that I was going to cut my wrists accidentally and bleed to death. Instantly I had to put down the scissors and refused to use them again. :S

It may be that I have become really paranoid about hurting myself, or I have suddenly come to have a fear of death. Who knows, but I don’t like it.

Whilst talking about the crash though, we have found out that it will cost £1700 to fix all the scratches and dents to the side of my car, and we nearly got told that our insurance company will not pay for it because of some idiotic reason that I am not the main policy holder for the car but the car is registered in my name. It also turns out the accident was the other guy’s fault because I had right of way, so we will also be getting our excess back and my insurance payments shall stay the same when I renew in September, but that is only if Tescos Insurance can track down the insurance company of the other guy.

Ben