Solipsus

Blogging or doing any type of work just seems to much effort at the moment, and when I do, it is just dribble. Take my last post, I got bored half way through (can you tell?) and therefore the end result was nothing I had planned, but then again, a post is a post. Saying that, alas, I am here at 1am, unable to sleep and posting.

Today was my cousin’s, Emma, 15th Birthday and to celebrate they held a family BBQ. Not exactly a family BBQ with both my parents, my brother, my sister, my Uncle Dave and new Auntie Sharon, Uncle Kevin all not being there. All in all, it was a good time with singing along to my cousin playing her new acoustic guitar, dancing in the garden, alcohol being consumed… etc. :)

Unfortunately, due to my crappy mood (both feeling lonely and not having a car - will tell in a later post), I was very bad at knowing when to stop taking jokes too far. E.g saying my cousin, Emma, had an ass the size of a moon. I felt very bad, because she seemed to be upset/pissed off the rest of the evening, and I cannot help but feel it was my fault. I later apologized and she seemed fine, but still - I guess I am now paying the price for being so mean by not being able to sleep and feeling sick.

What makes it worse is I cannot seem to be bothered to even lurk on Snark anymore. It just feels like I have no purpose for getting up in the morning. All my friends are either busy working or in another country until we get our AS results (16th August). So, off I go. Back to hitting the ‘Stumble’ button on my StumbleUpon toolbar every 30 seconds. :lol:

Ben