Solipsus

Quite recently, I posted that I had finished college/sixth form and that it had not quite hit me yet that I was never going to see my friends again and that my era at Charters has come to and end. Well only 3(?) weeks later, I am beginning to see the truth and it is getting to me.

I have been a frequent visitor at my sixth form over the last few weeks, doing jobs for next years school production of Oliver!, and making posters or just saying hi and every time I just feel weird that I do not see teachers as teachers any more or I feel like I do not need to justify my actions or dress-sense to any of the students there any more. I do not have to feel judged any more. Great huh?

On the downside though, I have not really spoken to any of my friends since the signing off day. They all seem to be moving on, going on holidays and enjoying themselves whilst I am just plodding along working a lot for my goal of getting some money behind me before University in September. It wasn’t until yesterday, when I sent out an e-mail to my Theatre Studies class asking if we could get together for a Take Away/BBQ the night before our results on 14th August, that I was happy to hear from people again. My Theater Studies class was my second family and it just felt strange that in a matter of hours when signing off, it all ended.

Here is to hoping that I at least stay in touch with some of them, if not all of them. Not going so well so far though. :/

P.S Sorry if this is a bit rambly, just tired.

Ben