I really cannot wait as it will be my first proper holiday in years. I am so excited in fact that I am already making packing lists, and plan on packing my suitcase ready to go tomorrow. I do not go until Friday afternoon, but I am just so… (I am going to use the work again) EXCITED!

I just hope I have enough money. When do you know when enough is enough to see you through? I do not want to spend too much, but then I do not want to assume that things will be cheap; that I won’t waste my money on silly things, or find that I do not have enough money on me to enjoy myself.

Another preparation was having my hair cut. I am not going to lie, I do have a problem with dandruff, and after having long hair for quite a while now (about 2 years) I have gone short again! Not very short, but I no longer have a fringe, and do not require to straighten my hair. It feels so weird. If you are lucky, I will post a picture of my hair trends before I go, or when I get back.

I’m off now.. because I want to sleep so that the time goes more quickly because I’M SO EXCITED ABOUT ITALY!

Graphic Products - B
Theatre Studies - C (7 marks off a B!)
Maths Statistics - D (24 marks off a C… achievable)

Now that I am not going to University, I will be able to try and improve these. And talking of which, just after I got my results, I also got a phone call from a web design company wanting to see me on Wednesday. The word interview was not really used, but I like to think of it as such. I am really looking forward to the prospect of working for a company and learning things which I have wanted to learn, but never known how or had to focus on my main school studies.

Having had such a great day, I decided to go out last night and celebrated with all my friends at a night club. I thoroughly enjoyed myself, and luckily am now paying for it too much this morning.

That being said, I have been working on a CV (kindly based on Jordan’s resume template), which once I get my results tomorrow I will send out to a list of local companies of whom I would like to work for. Things are already looking on the up; spontaneously I contacted a company on Friday and they have kindly replied and want to speak further over the phone with me about what we could do.

Though it has been proven that people with a degree earn more in the long run and go into higher ranking jobs, I would rather enjoy myself sooner and get into work sooner then spend another 3 years plodding along in education. Also, I feel if I have the talent and passion for the work, I do not see why I cannot earn the same as some person with a degree (and have less debt).

Again like yesterday’s post, here is to hoping. I shall post tomorrow (if I find the time) what my result are.

After years of sitting in my draw, and mass amount of boredom, I decided it was about time that I try and read “The Island” by Victoria Hislop. It took a while for me to get into, but I have finally finished it and found it a great and heart-grabbing read.

From reading the book, a couple of lines really hit home for me and got me thinking about the diseases that are prominent in everyones lives, primarily cancer.

“He certainly did not believe in a cure for leprosy. It was pure fantasy to imagine that the oldest disease in the world could be eradicated, and he would not let himself indulge in such a dream.” pg 379.

“The inconceivable had now become a reality” pg 391.

I just felt that those lines restored hope in the fact that one day we will find a cure for cancer like leprosy. I realise that as a world, people still suffer from leprosy and this would probably be the case with cancer as well, but to be able to help some and give more a chance of survival would be great and a huge step forward.

Well, here is to hoping.

With this new refurbishment, you may notice that there is no longer a Domain section, the about section has been heavily shrunk and no extra features are to be found. Why? Mainly because I felt that this space needs to just be for blogging. No promises of plugins which never get completed, or themes which rarely get downloaded - but just to go back to what this site is meant for: a place in which for me to speak freely and blog about my opinions and vent about my life.

Along with this, I have come up with a new layout which is creative, funky with a bold colour scheme and is what I feel personal to me. Many thanks to Brent and Rachael who have given feed back and pushed to get this done. The frog has been featured in quite a few of my previous layouts, and for some time now I have carried the tag line ‘The Blog with a frog’: the reasons of which can now be found on the about page. Hurrah! Hope you enjoy it as much as I am right now

P.S. Yes, there is no navigation either. The site simply consists of 3 pages: Blog, About and Archives. The links can be found in the relevant places, if not some links are in the footer. I wanted to keep the site clean and minimal.

I have been a frequent visitor at my sixth form over the last few weeks, doing jobs for next years school production of Oliver!, and making posters or just saying hi and every time I just feel weird that I do not see teachers as teachers any more or I feel like I do not need to justify my actions or dress-sense to any of the students there any more. I do not have to feel judged any more. Great huh?

On the downside though, I have not really spoken to any of my friends since the signing off day. They all seem to be moving on, going on holidays and enjoying themselves whilst I am just plodding along working a lot for my goal of getting some money behind me before University in September. It wasn’t until yesterday, when I sent out an e-mail to my Theatre Studies class asking if we could get together for a Take Away/BBQ the night before our results on 14th August, that I was happy to hear from people again. My Theater Studies class was my second family and it just felt strange that in a matter of hours when signing off, it all ended.

Here is to hoping that I at least stay in touch with some of them, if not all of them. Not going so well so far though. :/

P.S Sorry if this is a bit rambly, just tired.

His constant controlling of people, telling people off for their Health and Safety, and always reminding the other housemates that they need to take into consideration that Mickey is blind. Hello!? I don’t think after about 3 weeks in the house, they are all just going to forget that Mickey is blind. God. Stfu!

Another thing which I really did not like about him, and we possibly would not have seen if his partner (Lisa) had not been in the house with him as well: was that he was constantly hounding her about her being too friendly and thinking it is real life rather than “just a game”. Yes.. I think Lisa realises it is a game, but there is no harm in doing something you enjoy by being nice and helping others around the house by watering the pots or washing up.

As you can tell.. I really do not like Mario. I am glad that he went last night, as it gives the space that Lisa deserves in the house and hopefully she will come out of her shell as well. Plus, I don’t have to see his ugly face every time I turn on the television.

That was until last Sunday when my Dad had to fly out to Spain for an urgent meeting leaving my mother and I alone in the house (this has no relevance at all, I am just setting the scene, ya-know). At about 11 o’clock we decided that we were tired enough to go to bed and forget all our troubles. 15 minutes later, I feel something crawl up my arm whilst turning over in bed. I screamed, searched my bed sheets, found nothing so resumed to my slumber. Not 2 minutes later; I think to myself “No. This isn’t right. I did feel something.” So once again, I remove myself from my oh-so-comfortable bed, look under every bed sheet to find nothing and then think to look under my pillows. To my horror, I find a spider about the size of my hand standing where my head had been just 5 minutes ago! Needless to say, I scream again and get my Mum to throw it out of the window.

Since that evening, I have had to sleep with a lamp on, and have broken into a routine of scouting my room and all bed sheets for spiders before even attempting to go to bed. As the title says, I feel so annoyed that I had just moved forward in my life by getting over these fears; to then find myself back where I started, if not worse off because I feel so much more scared that I am going to have another spider crawl up my arm.

I lay in bed most nights trying to going to sleep and I actually think of blog topics, and write the blog out in my head. It is then an obstacle to start my laptop up, log onto my WordPress admin panel and write the blog. This is why I currently have a list of 13 blogs (written on the back of my Trident chewing gum packet!)… I just need to get around to blogging them. Well not get around to it, but actually get off my lazy ass and doing it.

So back to the telepathic blogging. A possibility in the future? Or do you just think I need some tips on how to make blogging easier - not the thinking of topics for a blog, but writing it?

However, it was a very different story when I left my primary school. After our final assembly; in which we performed songs, dances and the like; I broke down into hysterical tears and therefore other people breaking down in the same way when they say me. Instead of a group of 11 year olds excited about the prospect of a new school and friends, it was more like some kids from reception denied their play time!

University will start for mw on September 1st, and whilst I am thrilled to be meeting new people, being in a new place after 7 years, but at the same time scared that my abilities will not be as good as the others and therefore affect my confidence and the outcomes of my work. I am going to an art university (University of Creative Arts at Maidstone, Kent) to study Graphic Media, and having never done Art since Year 9, this might be a new challenge, surrounded by talented artists… In the mean time I will just be busying myself with work at Tescos and multiple website projects for clients.